Bereft
I have lots of overpopulator stories to tell, and one day soon a bunch will come at once. But I just can't write them yet. I'm just missing Anna so much that I can't muster up much except that. Last night at bedtime the crying came back and it was like it never went away. I know grief is like that, but it sucks; it's scary b/c it feels like it will never feel okay. S-phie got glasses, there's drama over S-phie's newly assigned Kindergarten teacher, I don't know what to do about the possibility that they're going to make all the kids say the "pledge" - these were all things I've been thinking about recently and all were things I would have gone to Anna for some good discussion and solicited and unsolicited advice, experience, etc. Or maybe I just want to tell her how crazy H-nry is, or how C-rina gets food stuck in her cooch all the time, but the point is, I just have all this stuff I want to share with her, and now she's not here and I just feel this huge, painful emptiness in my life. I know I'll get back to wanting to write silly stories about my kids and post pictures of them, but I just can't get to there from here quite yet. Soon maybe.
posted by mama at 10:51 PM
4 Comments:
Oh Hannah. I feel for you. You take your time, but I'll be waiting.
So, 1. Why are you the overpopulator? Did some liberal Patriarch in college tell you that?
2. What do you have against "the Plege?" Every time I say it I get goosebumps. Just curious.
I forgot to say, sorry for your loss. I don't know who Anna is, but I'm very very sad for you. You sound as if you are in pain. That makes my heart hurt.:(
LW,
Thank you for your condolences. I have been in pain, but it is getting better slowly. As to your questions, I am not sure what you mean by a liberal Patriarch, but no pundit of any variety told me that I'm an overpopulator - it's just me making fun of my breederly ways. I don't like kids to have to say the pledge b/c you must pledge to your belief in "one nation under God," which I believe violates the 1st amendment, as well as my personal sesnibilities, and even w/o the God part, it just feels creepily nationalistic to me - to me, liberty and justice for all means getting to choose whether or not you pledge your allegiance to the flag, once you're of an age to make an informed choice.
Post a Comment
<< Home